"Is this yours" the voice belonging to a female student in the regular black and white uniform

  Her features consisted of fair skin, black hair and blue eyes

  She was quite pretty and the smile on her face was sweet

  Well looks are one thing if not deceiving

  "Huh" it took a while for me to register that the question was directed at me

  I was confused and the hand that held the stall knob paused as I gripped the cold steel

  My head also slowly turned to face the female student standing infront of the first stall

  Due to the close proximity between the second stall and the first; I could clearly see the hairpin she dangled infront of my face

  My eyes glued to it as I slowly realized the implications that came with her obtaining it

  "Yes it's mine" I said moving closer to grab it

  She dodged my hand while laughing

  "Oh it's really yours" she said waving the hairpin at me

  I knew that she probably won't give it back to me

  Well can I kill her and steal it back

  "Where did you get it" I asked the question first

  "Hmm , I came to your dorm to check for my stuff and happened to see the hairpin" she said

  Ha.. so basically you came to my room to take my hard earned money as usual but you saw the hairpin

  But that hairpin has always been hidden so how on earth did she find it

  Unless it was during that time that it fell out

  That time consisting of this morning

  My roommates were more aggressive than usual

  Their mood was unpleasant due to the pushover of their group getting sick

  And it just has to be the day after I washed her uniform

  Anyway I was blamed for it without evidence and slapped around to relieve their anger

  Of course I didn't fight back but apologized for it

  The hairpin must have fallen out at that time

  "Please give it back" I said staring at her

  "I'm sorry I don't think I heard you correctly"

  "Care to repeat that Onee-san" she said

  I flinched at that term older sister

  It's not something she likes to use unless she's about to torment me

  "Its just that I need the hairpin" I tried to argue

  "You...need something" my sister snickered as she said it sarcastically

  She emphasized the word you and need while trying to hold back her laughter

  What's so funny

  Should I kill you so that you won't be able to smile again

  "I don't need anything except that hairpin" I said

  "I'm curious why you think you have the qualifications to say that infront of me" she said still snickering

  "It's just old rusty garbage so I just thought it's not appropriate for someone like you to have it" I didn't say the reason

  " That's something I can decide for myself"

  "I can work more jobs and get you a new one" I said this and my body started to ache again

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  It was reminding me how I'm already working up to my limit

  "But I want this one" she was playing with me and we both knew it

  " I can help you get into clubs without father knowing"

  "I can do that just fine, is that all" she said

  I paused and looked at her dumbfounded

  You can get into clubs by yourself

  But that's not what you told me that day

  No you said that you needed my help and took me to the club

  You said I should be grateful for the job opportunity

  But the only thing I ended up being grateful for was that my disease makes me look like this

  I can still feel the disgusting hands as they grab me and tore off my uniform

  My hands are still trembling till this moment at what could have happened

  My hands tremble now from the idea of tearing those hands from the body

  And my cheeks sting as I remember the slap I received from the boss for disrespecting a guest

  My face blooms into a smile as I slap the manager to death

  And all of this was just a sick joke to you

  But can I get angry about it

  Yes I can

  Can I do anything about it

  No I can't

  So I just have to accept it

  Yes I do

  Because there's nothing I can do or say to express my anger

  hehe

  I can always just kill her to express this rage

  "I'm sorry but i..." I apologized first instinctively once I felt angry

  I honestly don't know if it's because I feel sorry for myself or I feel sorry that I'm angry

  "Mom and Dad would be disappointed in you"

  Haha... isn't it the child they abandoned that should be disappointed

  "I'm sorry" I apologized because I still don't want them to be disappointed

  " After all they've done for you even though you are a monster" she said

  Is it really my fault that I have Waanderberg syndrome and albinism

  "I'm sorry" I apologized because I do look quite monstrous

  "Or do you suddenly think you're all that because you earn money"

  Yeah the money that goes to your booze and snacks

  Even though our family is one of the pillars of the noble district

  That is a high status in these times

  And high status equals a lot of money

  And a lot of money goes into their precious daughter

  I'm not considered a daughter but a stain

  Meant to be hidden away

  "I'm sorry" I apologized because I felt contempt for her

  i should just kill those adults that abandoned me

  "You really love to apologize don't you" my sister said

  "I'm sorry" I don't know why I apologized but I figured it was because I annoyed her

  "Why don't you show some sincerity"

  I looked around and found a bucket of mop water

  "I'm waiting"

  I grabbed the bucket and dumped it's contents all over myself

  "I'm sorry" I apologized with my head down

  My sister laughed at me while taking pictures

  I just stood there resisting the urge to cry

  I decided to watch the water spread all over the floor to distract myself

  I even heard someone slip outside

  The feet that were showing inside the occupied stall twitched once the water came close

  Her socks were soaked due to how close I'm standing to the stall

  I could see the black spots from the outline of her wet socks

  I flinched because I remembered the students in the clinic who also had black spots

  That's why I decided to move to the sink to squeeze my blazer damp

  I walked to the sink and removed my wet glasses

  There were water droplets on it though it doesn't really matter since I don't need glasses

  I just use it to hide the eyes behind the bangs

  Due to my rare disease, I have pink eyes

  They say it's because the blood vessels in my eyes are prominent

  So it makes my iris look pink

  Basically it's like I'm constantly in the state of having pink eye

  Waanderberg syndrome causes my skin to become transparent

  So my blood vessels are very prominent which disgusts most people

  And my hair has streaks of white that have to be dyed black regularly

  I try my best to hide all this to avoid inconvenience to other people

  I wear baggy clothes and never wear skirts or shorts

  I always wear a nose mask and huge black tinted glasses that make everything dark

  My hair is dyed weekly with my own money and I avoid people in general

  Even when I do have to interact with people, I try to do it as fast as possible

  But those eyes that look at me in disgust makes me nervous

  I end up stumbling over my words and apologizing all the time

  Which just makes it worse

  Other people don't help me but laugh at me

  Should I just end the whole world

  boom!

  The stall door opened with force

  The student came out with an awkward posture

  She growled at us

  I froze in fear

  I instinctively knew that the student was dangerous

  The sink was farther from the stall andy sister hadn't moved much

  So it wasn't surprising that she was attacked first

  But my sister is tough

  This was dangerous times due to the destruction of half the world

  The people who could survive the natural disaster were certainly not weak

  And being the daughter of a high noble meant that she was taught how to be able to defend herself or run away

  My sister dodged the student and rolled to my side

  I just stared at her with my hands over my mouth trying not to scream

  My sister may have been a survivor but I was not

  I was just lucky to survive this long

  And my grandma sacrificed herself to keep me alive when my luck ran out

  That's why the hairpin was so important to me

  It was her last gift to me because she knew I loved peonies

  Now it looks like I might join her soon enough

  The student landed on the floor and stood back up with a weird posture

  Her back lifted itself up and her legs followed itself

  Visually it was terrifying and the sound of her bones cracking due to the weird movement was even worse

  She stumbled around to face us and I could see the glaring red eyes that looked at us

  My sister frowned beside me and then I felt a hand push me forward

  I couldn't hold it back this time and I screamed

  The student lunged at me and bit into my neck

  I screamed and tears were flowing

  The last thing I saw as my vision faded was my sister's back and the peony hairpin that was on the ground

  Suddenly I felt that the most person I'm sorry to is myself

  I'm sorry that I wasn't dead

  I really am weak

  He he

  Ha ha

  He he he

  ............

  "Is this yours"

  Huh I'm alive