I woke in the morning, under a comfy blanket, arms wrapped
around Ever’s warm weight. The low rumble of her purr vibrated against
my chest. I wondered where the blanket had come from.
Looking down at the cat woman drooling slightly on my
bicep, I couldn’t help but consider the implication of the differences
in beds between here and home. I’d needed to share a bed with someone
not terribly familiar a few times in my life, mostly as a kid with other
kids. But the plain flat rectangle of a modern bed made it easy enough
to ignore the fact, so long as there were enough covers, and a decent
amount of space. These cup-shaped things, however large or shallow, were
designed to bring anyone using the space into close contact, piled up
like a heap of kittens in a basket. I hadn’t reckoned with the
difference at all when I made my offer the night before, but after a
moment’s consideration I was glad. I wouldn’t have wanted that to stop
me from doing so.
Despite my best attempts to stay still while my brain
worked, Ever woke soon after me, raising her head from my arm and
blinking around uncertainly. I offered her a close-mouthed smile. Fangs
first thing in the morning didn’t seem super friendly to me.
“Sleep well?” I asked.
She sighed and stretched, turning to bury her nose in the
base of my throat for a moment. “Like a dream,” she answered. “Thank
you.”
I stroked a finger under the corner of her chin, pure
habit from home. “You’re most welcome. And thank you. I’ve been needing
some comfort myself recently.”
She blinked up at me as though disbelieving the statement,
but smiled back hesitantly, and then she was moving away, crawling out
of our nest and straightening her clothes. I followed suit.
“Whose blanket is this?” I asked, as I started to fold it up.
“Can’t you smell La’a on it?” she responded.
I took a sniff, cocking my head. As before, any time I let
myself pay attention to the input from my nose I was instantly
overwhelmed by a zillion different pieces of information. Was the
slightly dusty copper scent of the drake among them? Maybe, I couldn’t
be sure.
“Nah, I really can’t. This nose is just too much. Literally.”
Ever cocked her head up at me, pausing with one hand on the curtain. “Really?”
I shrugged. “It just tells me so much at once I can’t make heads or tails. Kind of annoying.”
“Huh. We should find you some help for that, once we get home.”
“That’d be nice, I guess.”
I followed her out into the common area, setting the folded blanket down on a spare chair.
“I’ve gotta ask. A lot of what you told me last night
kinda flew over my head, you know? I understood some things, but others
don’t make sense to me. Like why do you act so standoffish if you
actually like physical contact?”
“Oh.” She folded herself onto a knee-chair, a frustrated look on her face.
I settled myself in the same bean bag-like one I’d used the night before, winced, and dug my tail out from under me.
“It’s a matter of propriety, you see. That sort of thing
just isn’t done. I—” If she weren’t so self-contained, I imagined Ever
would be twisting her fingers into knots or some such. As it was she
just got even more still.
The curtain of La’a’s room slid back with a surprisingly
loud metallic sound. “Really?” She said. “It’s simple. The wolves are in
charge around here, and wolves think touching is for babies and people
you’re fucking. Anything else they see as ’weakness’ and make fun of. So
sane folk who like not being all alone have to pick between getting
picked on for being normal or getting messed up in the head trying to
toe the line too hard. By the way, congrats. I thought I was the only
one who was going to get lucky last night.”
Ever’s indignant gasp would presumably have been followed by one of their usual arguments, but I jumped into it for a change.
“No, nothing like that. Whose side are you on, anyway?”
“Why the side of Luuuve!” she crooned ridiculously. “So disappointed now. Still, cuddles is a good first step.”
“Thank you for the blanket, La’a,” I offered.
She shrugged one shoulder and folded into a seat.
The other curtain opened, with less gusto, and Fiddle
poked his head out. “I suppose there’s no point me hanging back,” he
commented, and shuffled into the room as well.
The others greeted him casually, while my brain hiccuped
over how tiny he seemed now, when last night, in the dream library, he’d
been only about a head shorter than me.
“Good morning,” I hurried to paper over my silence. “More’s the merrier.”
I looked around at the three of them. “So I take it Kiri was on the side of ’touching is dumb’ too?”
Fiddle nodded ruefully, Ever reluctantly. La’a snorted a laugh. “Very much so.”
“Well, obviously, I am not.” I took a deep breath. “I know
I’m not actually your princess or anything, but as far as I’m
concerned, nobody should feel reluctant to share a touch or a hug—around
or with me. I agree with La’a, it’s good for you. We need hu—” I
stopped and started over. “We need contact, especially from other
people.”
“Here, here!” the drake cheered, displaying her uncomfortably sharp teeth in a grin.
Fiddle smiled at me, and Ever just nodded, obviously still uncomfortable despite everything.
“So what do you say we go downstairs for breakfast? I’ve had enough privacy for a while.”
#
Perhaps inevitably, the dining room of our chosen inn
wasn’t very busy when we got there, but I appreciated the little bit of
hubbub anyway.
Over my second plate of eggs, crispy rice, and
honey-glazed fish, I related my first visit to the dream library to my
companions.
“I still can’t believe you didn’t tell me about the amazing—” - “—librarians.” I stopped. “The” “librarians around—What the fuck?”
Fiddle grimaced. “I did tell you, the librarians prefer their privacy.”
“You didn’t say they could edit I’d
never experienced being unable to say the words I’d planned to say
before, and I didn’t like it one bit. Gave me a sudden gush of sympathy
for my old friends with speech impediments.
“It’s not your brain that’s edited, just your tongue,” Fiddle corrected. Cheeky git.
“It’s okay, Anne,” Ever put in. “He has told us about what the librarians are.”
“It is possible to get around their block with a bit of ingenuity,” he affirmed.
That made me feel a little better, but still. “Damn, mind magic is no joke.”
Fiddle picked up on how bothered I was by this revelation.
Probably had something to do with how I sat there not eating with a
frown on my face. After a minute’s contemplation, he offered, “It might
make you feel better to know that mind magic can never erase knowledge.
That’s anathema. It can be obscured or restricted, or even created—with
illusions—but never destroyed.”
“Huh. That does help. A little.” I was able to return to
my breakfast after that, although I ate the rest of the meal in silence.
#
Back on our way again, Ever led us off through more of the
bustling city, skirting around the western side of the
honest-to-goodness Jack’s beanstalk slash vertical jungle toward the
city’s northern gate. I could just hear the river over the babble of the
morning crowds, but the smells that pushed their way to the forefront
of my awareness were all green growing things, even above the urban
melange. My head kept turning back and up to stare at the twisting maze
of vines, populated with a wide variety of life.
There were busy green-furred monkeys climbing around all
over, squabbling with completely normal looking squirrels, and dozens of
species of colorful birds. Here and there the wall of vines was
interrupted by clumps of packed earth or stone, some big enough to build
on, although none had been that I could see from here. It seemed the
only construction of any size up there was the official residence we’d
seen yesterday, on the other side of the mass. But after a while I did
catch a glimpse of a person up there as well. They had big round ears
and a long, naked tail and I only realized they didn’t entirely belong
because they were wearing clothes.
“So rat folks are a thing here too, huh?” I murmured. “Are they about your size then, Fiddle?”
“Hmm?” Fiddle followed my gaze briefly, then went back to watching the crowd around us. “Yeah, about that.”
That was a pretty short answer for him. I glanced over at
the back of his head, but it didn’t tell me anything. His tail wasn’t
swishing about more than usual, so that didn’t tell me anything either.
It did remind me of something that had bothered me the day before. That
jerk bird guy in the doorway. How he’d used the word ’small’ as though
it were the worst sort of insult. It didn’t make sense. I didn’t want to
pester Fiddle about it, but I couldn’t help worrying at it again. I
knew the wolves who seemed to make up the ruling class—or at least a
high caste—around here were big on being big and strong and soldierly,
but could it really go so much further than preference? Was their
society actually prejudiced against the ? What idiocy.
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brown I sighed. I suppose there was no point hoping for a utopia when the world was still full of people.
The change in scenery as we approached the edge of town
distracted me from my ruminations. The narrow lane we were following
spilled into a large, complicated intersection, half a dozen streets
coming together along the city wall, funneling toward the North gate. We
joined the flow of traffic heading out without any difficulties,
although I got the faint impression that several were on the cusp until I
happened to look at them. Hm.
We passed through the gates with no searches or questions
from the alert guards. They looked everyone over as we went by, but
didn’t stop us. I wondered if they had wanted posters someplace, to
catch lawbreakers trying to leave, or if they’d rather just let them go.
The wilderness around here was pretty dangerous, it seemed. Maybe
they’d just let it do the work for them in such cases, and keep the
’undesirables’ from coming back inside.
Past the gate, we crossed over the same sort of deep ditch
as at the gate we’d entered, walking on a solid plank drawbridge, but
beyond that the medieval-esque familiarity ended. The road split into
seven separate tracks. The leftmost one headed a bit to the west and
then paralleled the river, disappearing into the distance in much the
way I’d expect from a road. The other six alternated between normal
looking roads that eventually curved over to meet the first one and
weird ones that went underground for a brief stretch. Those three spread
apart from one another by maybe thirty yards, with a normal road
between each, and descended gently into the earth. The sides of the
three channels arced up smoothly, eventually covering each road as it
sank, leaving straight, low ridges showing their path, until each opened
up again—not more than a quarter mile further on—and the roads rose
back to ground level, with a steady trickle of foot and cart traffic
exiting. The weirdest part was that most of those travelers were turning
around immediately and heading back toward the city on one of the
intervening roads.
I looked to my companions, very confused as to the point of these bifurcations and detours.
La’a grinned, the first to notice my expression.
“You’ll see. There are signs.” She pointed ahead to the
spot where the confusing roads divided from one another, and sure enough
there was a sturdy wooden signpost, arrows pointing to the three
strange tunnel roads.
Ever looked like she was about to comment for a moment,
then shrugged, apparently deciding to let the drake have her fun this
time. As we got close enough to the way-posts, I read off the portions
in Indran, “Hovethborg, Capital of Ulthara; Haupunktur, Grey Range Central
Pass; Kolotokelau, Gateway to Talakoni.” The signs were written in at least
three other languages, their statements about the same length for each
name but the last. The round, swooping lettering for that one went on
much longer for whatever reason.
“Wait, so these tunnels are some kind of magical transportation?”
“Yes indeed!” Fiddle crowed, as pleased as if he’d made
the guess himself. “These are Step-Gates. We’ll enter one here, just a
couple of hundred chiliells from the border with Sisselia, stroll down
that tunnel, and exit just outside the capital, nearly two thousand
chiliells away!”
“Damn! I have no idea what a chiliell is, but that sounds like quite the shortcut.”
“One chiliell is a thousand ells,” Fiddle said, with only a
hint of ’how can anyone not know this’ in his voice. “And an ell is
about the length of your—well of an average person’s—stride.”
“Hm. Okay. Thanks.” I gave him a smile and started working out rough conversions in my head.
Ever guided us onto the track to the northernmost of the
three Step-Gate roads and we strolled along with the traffic till it
backed up for another inspection. Two pairs of guards—all brawny wolf
guys in fancy armor—stood to either side of the tunnel’s entrance. One from each pair
was quizzing travelers about their business and passes.
“Passes, huh? Are we okay there?” I asked my guides.
Fiddle perked up and stepped away from the line to get a look ahead.
I heard in my head all of a sudden.
I gave Ever a nervous look.
I tried asking the same way.
She winced and responded,
My brows rose. I knew that Kiri’s ridiculous height would make her stand out of pretty much any crowd, but still…
La’a’s mind voice sounded even grouchier than her out-loud one.
Ever offered. I wasn’t feeling it. I really didn’t want a whole city—or
even a whole city’s worth of cops—welcoming me back as their favorite
princess.
Fiddle put in confidently. He returned to my side and frowned, probably working up some cool mind magic.
I did as he asked, bending my legs almost triple to bring
my head below the level of at least some of the crowd walking ahead of
us. It wasn’t exactly fun, but this body was crazy fit, and I figured I
could probably duck-walk a mile or two if I had to.
I asked him.
He laughed aloud. :No, sorry. Invisibility gets harder
the more minds you have to affect. I’d keel over trying to hide you from
everyone here for even a couple of minutes. But I can disguise you as
someone else. A shorter Ulfur, so you won’t be recognized. That I can
hold in a crowd for a half hour or more, so long as the height and width
aren’t too far apart.:
I hummed at that. Sure I probably , but that certainly didn’t mean I to.
Fiddle’s head snapped up to look me in the eye, more
surprise on his face than I would’ve expected for such a simple
suggestion.
I nodded encouragingly and he laid a hand on my elbow, expression going intent for a long moment.
:There. You can straighten up now, although maybe go
back to walking on your heels like you used to. That’ll fit an Ursur. I
made you look older, too, just in case.:
I didn’t ask in case of what, just settled my feet flat on
the ground again and unbent my knees to a comfortable degree. I was
surprised at how much less natural it felt already. But it did drop the
top of my head by maybe a foot or so.
Ever and La’a both gave me a careful once-over and offered
their individual brands of approval: The cat gave a reassuring nod and
the drake snorted and looked away without comment. I sighed and tried to let go of my nerves. Just act natural, that was the key to deception.
I asked, worried again.
:Hah, I’m better than that. I can make the change feel
retroactive, so when they see you now their eyes tell them you always
looked like this. Unless they happened to pay very close attention to
your appearance before, they won’t notice a thing.:
Huh. That was pretty impressive. Sort of giving a boost to
their normal change blindness, I guessed. I took a calmer breath or two
as none of the other shuffling travelers seemed to pay any attention.
When we arrived at the guard post, soon after, Ever showed
the questioner some sort of medallion and indicated the four of us. He
perked up, then deferentially nodded and let us pass.
As we started to descend the walls began to curve up and
in ahead of us, following the gentle arches of numerous wooden poles
woven into a solid surface. At first I imagined it to be bamboo, but the
texture was all wrong, with no visible node lines interrupting their
smooth surfaces. Eventually I remembered the specifics of the crazy
vertical jungle in the middle of town. That’s what made up these walls,
of course.
As we passed into the tunnel proper, lit once again by
glowing fairies in metal cages along both walls, I started to feel an
odd buzzing sensation from Fee’s resting spot behind my ear. The farther
into the tunnel we got, the stronger it became. My first guess was that
it had something to do with the fairies lining the way, but there had
been far more in use in the towns and I hadn’t noticed anything like
this before.
“Are your fairies vibrating too?” I asked.
“Ah, that’s a reaction to the sheer amount of indigo in
here. Nothing to worry about, I promise!” Fiddle said, seeming to have
regained his usual cheer.
Curious, I reached down to Ever’s ear, trying to touch
Nuum. My finger passed through the space the yellow fairy occupied like
always, with no more sensation than before.
With nothing much to look at as we paced slowly through
the tunnel, I focused my attention on Fee’s buzzing, wondering if I
might be able to tell anything specific from the sensation.
“Hey Fee, about my time sense. It tells me hours and minutes, but can it work in shorter increments?”
:Certainly, Bonded. You have merely to focus on such. This one’s help is not required.:
“Can it measure the speed of things?”
:Not directly, Bonded. It is possible to improve that power to allow for such measurements, however.:
“Huh. We should look into that when we get a chance. Could be useful. What frequency are you vibrating at right now?”
:This one cannot say, Bonded.:
Huh. “Can’t because you don’t know? Or can’t because something prevents it?”
She didn’t respond.
“Hmph.”
I experimented with my time sense and it was as she’d
said, I could choose to pay attention to tenths or even hundredths of a
minute, which was funky. I even tried paying attention to thousandths,
but that just blended into a meaningless blur. Not too surprising. I
tried using those indications to measure the speed of Fee’s vibrations,
but they were just too fast to get a solid read on. But at least the
experiments kept me busy while we walked through the dim,
not-at-all-claustrophobic tunnel that only rose maybe two feet taller
than the top of my head in the middle.
The light of the fairies was eventually challenged and
then eclipsed by the sunlight visible at the far end of the tunnel. It
had a sharper edge to it than the light where we’d just been, and I
wasn’t entirely surprised when our arrival at the exit had my friends
and the other travelers around us blinking and shading their eyes. I
didn’t feel the need for that, my eyes adjusting to the change in light
as smoothly as if I’d slipped on sunglasses at the perfect moment.
The view included the shimmer of a large body of water off
to my left, and rolling farmland ahead, most of the houses wood and
stucco with gray-thatched roofs and most of the fields still empty this
early in the year. We followed as the majority of the traffic turned
sharply to our right and doubled back on our path, passing by the
outside of the low mound that protected the Step-Gate we’d just come
through.
Once we’d passed it, the walls of a large city rose ahead,
spreading out to the shore of the sea or ocean, with a river glittering
down from hills that rose precipitously toward the rising sun. It
didn’t exactly hurt for me to look straight at the sun now, but I wasn’t
able to see much past its glare either. I could just tell that the
highest, distant peaks of the range had snow on them, but depending how
far north we were now, snow on the ground might not be impossible here.
The air was definitely nippier here, probably above freezing, but not a
long way. I didn’t feel the need for more clothing anyway, but with all
Kiri’s protections I probably wouldn’t in the middle of a polar bear
plunge either, so that wasn’t much of a metric. I glanced at my
companions. Ever and Fiddle showed no signs of physical discomfort
either, but La’a had pulled another garment out of her pocket and was
wrapping it over her robe like a big shawl. Interesting.
Ever caught my attention before we got to the city walls
and directed us off the main road onto a side track that headed east and
uphill, skirting around. This path led us along the base of a series of
watchtowers, and we passed by quite a few small squads of soldierly
types moving around as we went. Even as a bear woman, I got second
looks from most of them, and a few gawked to the extent of bumping into
their fellows, or stumbling on the rough edges of the trail. It wasn’t
constant, but a frequent enough irritant that I found my mood souring
significantly by the time our course curved around and began to descend
toward the bank of the river. It must have leaked into my expression, as
the last trio of guards we passed on the way all flinched and ducked
their heads as they passed instead of just staring like lovestruck
tweens. That didn’t make me feel any better.
“So, we’re avoiding the city, that’s cool and all, but where exactly are we going?” I asked, to distract myself.
“Like we said before, we’ll take the river back to Tonnheim,” Ever said.
“Which is—?”
She grinned and turned to point to the east, toward the mountains in the distance. “That.”

