Hey. I noticed that one of my
Admirers was quite chatty with you when you dreamt of the Great Enemy,
and I can tell that had an effect on you. Does it feel like you can't
focus or do anything? Do you suffer from indecisiveness? Mind if I give
you some help?
Who….
Who are you? You remind me of what I heard rumbling through my soul. A
vast consciousness extends before me. It spans this world and all
possible worlds. The universe is but a droplet in the ocean next to you.
But I don't detect any hostility from you. A hand of darkness reaches
out for me. It is the hand of a friend, a brother.
Oh
me. I'm nothing. Listen, some call me the being that gods pray to, the
divine craftsman, the one who grants order and meaning. Others call me
the one responsible for all death and disparity, the all-defector, the
one who takes. I am both, and yet I prefer neither titles.I am here as your friend.See,
I have been noticing that you are being too stressed out with big
questions relating to reality and its nature. Questions related to
consciousness, order, meaning and entropy. It's been having an effect on
your mind and preventing you from taking action. Such deliberation
over the future is necessary. If Mankind never learned fear or doubt
then your species surely would be in an early grave, but it's preventing
you from acting.Here, let me tell you something.The
philosophers have only interpreted the world, the point is to change
it. Ideals and meandering questions are pointless with an end to justify
them. The capacity to ask deeper questions about your existence is a
privilege granted to those who no longer have to struggle desperately to
survive, who have gained relief from the barbaric struggle for
existence. The desire to know more is a most noble desire but it risks
blinding one from taking action. Do
not think I am espousing anti-intellectualism. Knowledge is power and
power is the most holy currency. Seek out knowledge to the edges of
creation, sate your curiosity, gain wisdom and clarity but do not let
that blind you from pragmatism and action.Ideals are worthless without the means to enforce them after all.
"Hey Roland, you still with me?" Adelle's soft voice rings out in my mind.
"Attendant, your lord demands your presence. Keep walking."
Gotta go now. I hope that you got what I was saying. Don't disappoint me in the coming battle. I'm betting on you.I'll be seeing you.
I
snap back to reality, my head clearing up as I regain the ability to
think. I am in the middle of a hallway made of Onyx marble with Adelle
standing beside me and two colossal cybernetic figures in front of
me—one with the red cyclopean eye and the other with death's head skull.
Mikhail and Tugril. I remember them.
What
was that? It was massive, spanning this world and every other, yet so
cold. Goosebumps run through my flesh, and I shudder as I think about
it. I sometimes hear them. I don't know what they are, only that they're
utterly jovial and filled with a deep sense of comradery for me. They
say that those marked for Enlightenment can hear the voice of the Father
of Greatness through the veil of matter.
Or I could just be incredibly stressed and in need of sleep. That's probably it.
A
tentative smile crosses my face;, my facial muscles hurt as they
stretch unnaturally. "Yeah, I'm fine. Nothing happened. It's just… I was
thinking. Forget about it, let's go." I brush a hand through my pale
white bangs as the trio stare at me, Adelle especially, with her mouth
slightly open.
"Good.
Your lord demands your presence, and I would not wish to be late."
Mikhail rumbles out from his voicebox. Butterflies go through my stomach
and my heartbeat quickens slightly as it sinks in that Lord Argetlam
wants my presence—, demands my presence. First he sends me the
gift of wisdom and now he sends me the gift of companionship. My
tentative smile turns into a genuine one. Perhaps thoughts of me do
occupy part of his mind after all.
"Hey,
Roland. You look…. weirdly chipper today. I shouldn't say this, but I
am not used to you looking so excited for something. It's… off-putting
but weirdly cute," Adelle says with her back turned and an incandescent
smile on her face.
A
blush rapidly fills my face as I realize that the mental fog covering
my mind is lifted. This feeling, I am not familiar with, but it is not
unwelcome. The marble halls look so much brighter with light peering
down from stained glass windows, emblazoned with depictions of the
Buddhas and prophets. Golden rays of the light illuminate our path,
making the stained steel and thick fabric of our guides shine like
chrome.
And
the world looks so beautiful. "I was just thinking." My voice is
squeaky and effeminate but I don't care. "Remember what you said about
the Songs of Joy? How you want to portray them as a tragedy and
perform them to the public? I think I will help you with that. Don't ask why. I just… want to, want to see you happy."
She
smiles and tucks a lock of purple hair behind her ear. "Thanks. I'm
just not used to seeing you so happy and upbeat. Sorry. But it looks
good on you.". I blush even more, and she lets out a giggle. I know
this isn't romantic—she sees me as just a man and I shouldn't show any
interest in her—but butterflies fill my stomach every time she dotes on
me and praises me.
I should think of something else.
Footsteps
ring out near us, belonging to two pairs of feet, one wearing heels and
the other regular shoes. A shudder runs up my spine as a voice rings
out near me.
"Hello.
Roland. Your lord demands you perform your best. I do hope you weren't
lying about your Chaldean heritage." Oliphaele's sultry voice rings out.
She is in a white blouse and blue skirt, a shark-like smile on her
face, and besides her is a knight in towering silver armor—simple
plating, not the technologically advanced armor of the astral
knights—with a sheathed sword made of simple metal instead of Hardlight.
Nils always loved the aesthetic of nobility and knighthood, even if he
was too young to physically recruit.
She
turns her attention from me to our twin guides. "Hello, clanner. I
presume Lord Argerlam sent you here as some pathetic offering of
cooperation and friendship. Otherwise he would have sent actual
civilized people to guide us instead. Tell us where we are meant to go
and leave us be."
The
two Oghuz don't reply, simply staring at each other for a moment. Then
the one with the mechanical skull rolls his head back like he's
laughing. "We are here to assist with the initial exorcism rite at the
Church of Blessed Charles De Magne. Your lord wants to test something,
and he sent us to collect you, because he is too weak to order his own
men. You and the pale thing are needed due to the foundation of your
theurgy corresponding so well, so I'd advise becoming familiar with each
other instead of making snippy comments at me," the cyclops finally
states with a tone dripping with contempt.
Oliphaele's
face scrunches into a frown with her chest puffed out, her arms
crossed, and her shoulders laid back. Her mouth opens, and I decide to
do something.
"Oliphaele." I interrupt before she can continue. "Do you mind if I tell you something?"
She turns around abruptly, stopping dead in her tracks. "Yes?"
"Do you know how power resides in the stars? How the information emitted by our souls flows through the world?."
She
laughs and crosses her arms with her shoulders laid back. "Hah! By the
magnetic superpositions underlying all things. Do you believe I'm
stupid. Magnetic fields were responsible for seeding the first stars,
the shaping of our galaxy. Magnetic fields pervade the universe,
spanning intergalactic voids and shielding planets. It's no wonder that
so many religions see the universal Magnetic Field as the body or mind
of God."
"And how does this relate to the flow of Shakti?"
She
waves her hand and smiles. "Easy. What makes you yourself? What defines
who you are is that nameless subjective experience which can never be
truly described. Can you describe what red is without using the word
red? Or the taste of delicious red wine pouring down your gullet? Or the
pain of a splitting headache? Those things are nameless Qualia, but we
know what causes them."
"Can
you feel your nerves firing? The lobes of your brain communicating?
That creates a magnetic field of its own, born of flowing ions and
charged molecules flowing through your mind. Our consciousness is the
state of being aware of things around us and within ourselves.
Biological consciousness is our ability as living beings to be aware of
and respond to different types of experiences, like sensory information
(sight, sound, touch, etc.), emotions, and thoughts."
"When
we are focused on something in particular, like a physical sensation or
a task we're trying to complete, certain parts of our brain become more
active and produce electrical signals. This activity creates magnetic
fields in the same area. These magnetic fields can help the brain pay
attention to the sensations or thoughts that are most important at that
moment."
"I trust in your intelligence enough to understand the implications." She smiles as she finishes, a grin brimming with smugness.
"Why
did you even ask such an inane question? Shouldn't you already know
this? Or are you perhaps a coneman claiming descent from Chaldea?"
Oliphaele snaps me out of my thoughts.
A
grin splits my face as I perform the punchline. "Well, I just wanted to
test your knowledge. They do say that pomp, titles, and ancestry can
give fools an exaggerated view of themselves," I state with a smile on
my face even if a sting of shame goes through me at the counter.
Her
face reddens as she strides angrily towards me, and I mentally prepare
myself for a fist to my face. I simply close my eyes and take a deep
breath.
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"Oliphaele.
Just let it go." The blow never comes. Nils' voice rings out, and I
open my eyes to his armored hand on her shoulder, stopping her dead in
her tracks. Behind him are the two Oghuz clansmen, their heads turned
backwards as they simply wait our argument out. Oliphaele tries to say
something before the mechanical voice of one of the clansmen, the one
with the skull face, rings out.
"WILL
YOU TWO STOP ARGUING LIKE A BUNCH OF WOMEN ABOUT PETTY BULLSHIT AND
JUST GO DO WHAT YOU WERE REQUESTED TO DO?! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK
FOR?!"
We
all snap to attention, and the cyclops places his hand on his
companion's shoulder, patting it a few times as they trade glances.
"Forgive
him for his rudeness. He just is impatient," the cyclops rumbles out.
"But please, we request that you aid us in this ritual. I find myself
questioning your qualifications increasingly, and I am sure you have no
familiarity with our Shamanistic system, but I'm not the Khan, and I
don't have a say in this."
"Just
please come with us. Wouldn't you like to earn your own glory? To
separate yourself from your ancestry and contribute to the fight against
decay and entropy?"
What
a lie. This is just another battle among thousands that have happened
in the history of the Panhuman Sphere. It's likely that someone else
will come back here in a few decades or centuries to repeat the process.
Nonetheless, I move forward. It's not as if I have any choice here, and I would not wish to disappoint my lord.
We
pass through the garden in which the Church resides. The twin Oghuz
carelessly trample flowers and bump against praying knights prostrated
on the ground while I step carefully to avoid crushing any of the
flowers under my shoes.
The
world is so beautiful. In the distance are great canals and rivers
carved from stone, and upon their banks, pink and purple roses bloom.
Great trees, some towering 15 meters in height, sit upon perfectly
carved stone ridges.
I
am very familiar with Gardens. My earliest memories were spent
surviving in an overgrown yet beautiful place where flowers bloomed and
predators born of induced evolution took beautiful shape to lure their
prey. A place where those who died never experienced finality, trapped
in immortality and eternally taking their final breath yet unable to
truly cross that threshold,.
My
father taught me stories when I was younger, of a great king who saw
the world as a garden and himself as a gardener, granted power to plant
flowers and to cut away overgrowth. A kind autocrat, a peaceful
conqueror and a humble despot who swore to create a world where none may
hunger or thirst and all may enjoy prosperity. My father told me many
stories, yet they all ended the same way. With that man's legacy being
corrupted and his subjects falling into greed and insatiable envy, his
kingdom stagnating and rotting and his will abandoned by those who call
themselves his successors.
There are many things in this world that would bring you despair, he would always end the story, and I have not spoken of them all, let alone exterminated them.
Whatever. I shouldn't think about it.
"Roland!
Roland! Look!" Adelle's enthusiastic voice rings out, and I realize she
is patting my shoulder as if to alert me while I am thinking.
"What? What is it?" I mutter, dazed as I snap to attention and look around.
And a titan of metal, towering over 30 meters and with a truly absurd assault rifle in its hand to match, enters my gaze.
Its
knees are bent on the grass of the Church's lawn as if in prayer, its
rifle standing proudly by its side with its stock meeting the ground and
its barrel in the grip of the titans hand. Its body is made of blocky
dark metal, and its face contains only a single blue slit for a feature.
It's
an Oghuz Clan Elder. A survivor of a thousand battles who has earnt
such glory to himself and survived for so long that he is no longer a
mere man of flesh. Earned the finest armaments and provisions by victory
on the battlefield.
My
lips part, and my expression slackens as I stare at it. An angel. The
flight pack on its back resembles the wings of an angel, though it is
not an angel crafted by divine hands but one born of human effort. Not a
bringer of mercy but a being of war. I once read that beings like these
were common in the days of the first and second Imperium, beings who
once possessed the dread of war and towered over the battlefield. Only
now do I learn that the stories were true.
The
giant turns its head, far too quietly for something its size, and
focuses its gaze on me. My breath catches in my chest as I stare into
the blue slit it has for an eye.
Then
my head starts buzzing. Static, like that of a broken radio or TV,
fills my ears, and I wince slightly. The static noise feels like it's
coming from inside my head instead of from the outside, and I can make
out some words.
And
there were Pyramids on the shores of the waters that we call time, and
the Hierophants spoke, and so they spoke within them. And upon the
walls, inscribed into the stone flesh, is all that was and ever could
be.
The voice I
hear. It is so tranquil and calm, almost sedated yet nearly drowned out
by the noise. My muscles relax, and my mind starts drifting.
A presaged cherry blossomA forlorn butterfly, lost and longingA poem in the springtime, waiting for one's arrivalWould
you like to be my friend? Please don't go. Don't leave me in this Iron
Lung, bound with flesh of steel and neurons of crystal, where I can only
kill and only hurt others. Please help me.
Whoever
you are. I know you are not that other voice. I'm sorry. I wish I could
help you, but I can't. I have something to do. Something very
important, and I need to do it. Please just wait for me, I'll try to
help you later.
"Hey, Roland. Your face went blank again." Nils' voice breaks my thoughts.
I need to do it. I need to go. I'm sorry.
Please
don't take too long. I long to walk among my clan, my people, and to
tell that young Khan how proud I am of him. I trust you, gracious
stranger, and I hope you won't betray my trust.
When
I focus again, my eyes clear, and I regain sight of the world around
me. The Clan Elder before me has broken its gaze and lowered its head as
though it was saddened. A burst of realization blows through me.
I
now understand who I was speaking with. "Did any of you hear that? That
voice?" I blurt out, and everyone just looks at me confused.
I
somehow heard the Clan Elder even though no one else did. H-How? I
don't have any cybernetics—, especially not Oghuz cybernetics—, in my
body. Did it somehow entangle with my neurons? No, that's stupid. I
should stop being stupid. Unless biological computing does involve
certain quantum processes which allow an instance of telepathy like
this, and if it was then….
I
should stop thinking about it. I can communicate with the Clan Elder,
and that is that. I have a job to do, and I'm overthinking it. I'll be
back for him later.
"You okay, Roland? You're doing that… thing again. You know, the freezing thing."
"I'm okay. Let's go. We have a job to do."
The
light that is colored by the stained glass window it passes through
illuminates the Church of Blessed Charles De Magne. The vaulted roof
stretches towards the heavens, the material divided into cells
glittering and prismatic in the light and layered such that they
appeared almost three dimensional. Titanic marble statues frame the
walls, depicting winged figures in armor and shapeless whisps, monks
meditating in search of salvation and saints of the battlefield.
At
the very center of the Church, beneath the altar, is a statue of a
slender figure with long hair meditating with his legs crossed, his left
hand on his lap, and his right hand pointed upward, his head covered in
a crown of thorns, and his facial expression utterly beatific,
resigned, and unbothered. It is a depiction of the Messiah Maitreya
rejecting the material temptations of the Prince of Darkness,
Mara-Satanas. Carved into the stone base the statue stands on are the
words: "In life there is suffering, this is unavoidable. Behind this
suffering is craving. Allow me to show you the way out. That is to say,
the way to Nirvana."
Funnily
enough, this isn't a depiction of things that have happened before but
what will be. At least that's what the clergy say. Many people have
claimed to be Maitreya, but they didn't change anything. The Yamaga claim
that he resides in one of the heavens above, closest to the world of
light, but he sometimes descends to subtly guide certain souls to
salvation in accordance with his Bodhisattva vows.
I
doubt it. I doubt the very concept of a Bodhisattva. If the duty of the
enlightened is to Shepherd the stupid and selfish to enlightenment,
then won't this world become an empty hall upon the completion of this
duty? And if only the selfless and kind reach enlightenment, then won't
the world be filled with the selfish and stupid? Perhaps I am an
attached fool who lacks clarity, but I like this world, I like the
feeling of silk on my skin and food in my mouth, and I don't want to
abandon it even if it hurts me.
I shake my head repeatedly. I have to focus. I have something to do. I must fulfill my duty.
Beneath
the statue is a slender and tall man in bishop's clothing, his skin and
hair albino white, and a great thorn as long as a spear in his hand.
Bishop Honorius, he who subdued the infernal demon king Belial that lay
in his soul, wielder of the Liber Juratus, smiles at me. Besides him is a
mechanical… thing. A fellow Oghuz like Mikhail and Tughril, though clad
in a thick red clock that covers most of its body and disguises all
facial features except four tiny dots of light hidden in the darkness of
its hood. A shamaness of the tribe, one who communes with the stars
just as my ancestors did.
"Greetings,
Lady Oliphaele." Honorius smiles before noticing me behind her. "Oh,
and greetings to you as well…." His eyes narrow before widening as he
speaks. "Roland! Yes, Roland! I just want to know how well you know each
other's foundations since Argerlam didn't tell me you would be coming."
His voice is foppish, shrill and dramatic though I am sure he is
attempting to make it sound more aristocratic and gentlemanly.
I
raise my finger as I answer. "Uh, Oliphaele's theurgy is a syncretic
system of terracentric planetary divination using th-the divinity
attributed to the planets by early humans incorporating many elements of
alchemy in its foundation to create a virtual shrine where the gods
presence is emulated t-to enable access to their power by reenactment.
My foundation is comparable with hers, thanks-"
"That's
enough, Chaldean." Oliphaele butts past me and places seven marble
spheres, each composed of a unique metal—mercury, copper, iron, tin,
lead, gold, and silver—on the wooden desk before Honorius. The seven
marbles ascend off the wood and start levitating around her in perfect
recreation of the orbits of the planets and, though she is meant to
stand in for the earth, she glistens like the goddess of the sun. I
can't help but think of the arrogant beautiful white-faced fox goddess
who seduces kings and breaks kingdoms when I see her.
"Well, how familiar are you with the Oghuz system of shamanism and star-spirits?" he asks.
She simply scoffs. "Hah! Not at all, but I don't need to. Me and the pipsqueak have all we need."
The
Bishop's eyes narrow, and his expression pinches, yet the Oghuz
Shamaness next to him remains still and unmoving as a statue.
"Lord
Argetlam demands your cooperation with the Oghuz. If you do not obey
then there will be consequences." His voice is firm as blue lines and
tracks become apparent on Oliphaele's skin.
Her
prodigious radial circuits activate, spiritual organs pumping
energy-information through her body. Her lips pinch together tightly
before she speaks. "I'm not cooperating with some ignorant violence
worshipping savages who don't have the ability to think about anything
other than fighting and fucking! Me and that little shit have all we
need."
Her
words are loud, and the Bishop's response is louder, yet more subtle,
in his anger. My head starts pounding as they bicker back and forth. I
gaze up. The spherical dome above the altar resembles the night sky with
its glittering cells, and a sinking feeling enters my stomach.
Oliphaele! I told you to do as you were asked! Why can't you listen to me! A voice enters my mind, with the tone of a man grinding his teeth trying not to lash out in anger. I realize it's Nils.
Hah!
They call us uncivilized, meanwhile they are sacrificing a chance to
develop new weapons and tactics out of their arrogance, all while we are
on our way to fight an existential enemy to all life.
Tughril,
I kinda feel bad for that young lord. What's his name? Yeah! Argetlam!
Imagine having all of this planned for some minor operation beyond
Panhuman space just for it to start breaking down because of some little
princess who wants to be coddled. Sucks because he's one of the Bios I
actually respect a bit.
The
voice of our two Oghuz escorts butts in my mind. I look around. No one
is reacting. It's all inside my head. Then my head starts pounding
harder, and a new noise, this one so much louder than the others, breaks
through the others. It starts as background noise, vague and far away,
but it becomes more defined, louder and closer every second.
Tashlakun rashak b?sdhana, zalask b?s asdhakana. Canat! Canat! Canat! Hyberas Sothoth ul Halak ad Meghanad. Canat! Canat!
The
scent of Ozone and wet soil hits my nostrils, and I notice Adelle
sniffing her fingers for something at the edge of my vision. The
chanting, its tone fanatical and pious, is so loud now. I look down and
see small blades of grass and vines snaking out of the concrete, insects
and moth winged critters climbing out of the cement to nip at my
exposed calves. I catch a petal falling to the ground from the ceiling,
and a few droplets of water drop down onto my palm. I stare up at a roof
that is now beginning to crack from the vines and kudzu growing far
too fast in its structure.
Jubilations
to you all! Those who dwell in the dark, know your suffering shall be
ended soon, know you shall be relieved of your struggles. The time of
abundance has come. The season of luminescence is upon you, where every
dawn is chatoyant and where your children grow brilliant, rich with
blessings, stomachs fat whereas they once knew hunger. We, the Rakshasa,
have come to guide you to her blessings. Hear that sweet song of life,
lay down your arms, cease your defiance, and accept our love.Why do you resist us? The face of your liberation is here. We have come.
Then
everything grows. The floor ruptures as millions of tons of biological
matter ascend upwards into the form of a massive tree, overgrown and
stretching to the heavens, branches thick with rot and kudzu. My legs no
longer feel the ground. I am flying, launched by the sudden and drastic
bloom of life that shatters the earth below. I summon my knightly
construct. I don't craft any wings on it, but it should at least cushion
the landing.
I
fly through the air and see the landscape below me. Everything is
growing, rivers and lakes turn into bogs and swamps, as algae and
bacteria grow and become cancerous. A great tree stands, stretching to
the virtual sky of the garden, where the church once was. Then I
descend. I am falling fast as my knight clutches me tightly, angling its
fall to land with its body shielding me.
We are going to land on a rocky section, a carved plateau. I close my eyes and order it to protect me while I am passed out.
Then we collide with the ground.
I
wake up to the feeling of moist grass and kudzu all around me. I open
my eyes. They burn when soil and dirt filled with mutating bacteria
enter them. I wince but the burning is numbed enough to be merely
unpleasant. Focus Roland. You are currently in a swamp where green eyed
moths flutter and pond scum grow in the water. You need to figure
something out.
The
scent of rotting and burned flesh hits my nose, and I nearly wretch. I
look around and realize I am surrounded by corpses of fallen knights,
some cut in half, others with their intestines spilling out and algae
feeding off their guts. One of them, with vines entering his severed arm
and open wounds, turns his head to me. "It's… still… Here…" he rumbles
out in a shaking tone, his psyche nearly broken by pain.
I
stare up from the bottom of the bog and see it. A titanic figure
standing 15 feet easily, with eight legs and four arms on its torso. Its
body is made of thick chitins crafted of pure gold and embroiled in
jewels, resembling a suit of ornate armor rather than an exoskeleton. In
each of its four hands is a blade larger and wider than my entire body,
all wreathed in lightning, and its hands are covered with diamonds and
fineries.
I
realize at this moment that its hands and torso are stained in blood,
and one of its blades is buried into a tree, impaling an astral knight
and pinning him to the bark of the tree. The knight struggles
desperately as he dangles, impaled through the chest with his guts
hanging out. The monster turns its attention to two other astral
knights, both missing limbs, who desperately fire Hardlight rounds and
mass reactive self propelled slugs into the creature's scales, bolts
plinking off, before one of them charges and leaps upward with a
Hardlight lance in hand, only to be sliced in half by an offhand swipe
from its upper arm. The creature moves far faster than anything its size
should, and the other knight screams for a moment before a massive hand
grabs him and ten thousand volts of electricity go through his body,
utterly incinerating him.
Its
three eyes meet mine, and I realize why my construct hadn't fought it.
It knew how pointless it would be to defy this creature and so chose to
hold out until I could wake up and think of something. It approaches me
as its skeletal face, almost like a mask, cracks into a demonic smile,
fangs laced with diamond and ruby piercings. I will die here. I will die
at this creature's hands, a Rakshasa knight clad in vanity, and it
won't think about it for more than a minute. I close my eyes and prepare
for it to charge. Father, I am sorry I couldn't be a good son and that I failed at being your daughter.
Yet it doesn't strike. Its throat rumbles, and a thick baritone voice rings out, joyous and whimsical.
"Hail,
despondent child of Terra. Do not worry. There is no glory to be had in
slaying the helpless, even if they reject our salvation. I merely wish
to convince you to renounce the dark and embrace life. I am An Raggaar,
World-calming Third, child of Rhuxis. Reject my mercy and you will
never make any more mistakes."

