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Chapter Nineteen — Farewell

  A soft gray wash of morning light filters through the Whisperwood canopy, the leaves catching most of it. It’s enough to see with, but the warmth never reaches the ground. The fire is nothing but cold ashes.

  For a long moment, the clearing is still.

  The wolves lie scattered around the camp, curled in tight, exhausted shapes. Even the most alert among them sleeps deeply, heads tucked beneath tails. Charlie and Grizz are motionless except for the slow rise and fall of their chests. The Direfangs lie snug in their bedrolls, faces slack with the kind of sleep that comes only after fear has wrung a person dry.

  Rokan is the first to stir.

  He pushes himself upright with a quiet groan, rubbing the stiffness from his neck. After a moment, he moves through the clearing, checking the children, then the adults, then the perimeter. When he reaches Shineah’s mother, he crouches and touches her shoulder with the respectful caution of someone waking a lioness.

  “Matriarch,” he murmurs. “The light’s up. We should move. The sooner we put more distance between us and Fendarrow, the better.”

  Her eyes open immediately, alert despite the exhaustion. She nods once and rises to her feet.

  “Wake everyone,” she says. “We travel now.”

  The order ripples through the camp.

  Shineah wakes curled against Tormack.

  Her hand rests on his chest for a moment, a quiet check that he’s still breathing, still warm, and still here.

  My body feels like it’s made of stone. Every muscle aches from the night before, but the urgency in her hands pulls me fully awake.

  “We need to move,” she whispers.

  I nod, rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

  The wolves are only just waking, stretching stiffly. Charlie nudges my arm, checking on me. Grizz huffs.

  I push myself to my feet. The Whisperwood feels colder this morning, watchful and waiting.

  We gather our things and break camp, burying our fire pit that has gone cold, trying to make it look like we were never here.

  Somewhere behind me, a stomach growls, loud enough to make a few heads turn.

  I glance over and see one of the wolves. They went hunting last night, but they still look as skinny as ever. I don’t see any signs that they caught anything.

  I head over to Charlie and Grizz, crouching beside them and scratching behind Charlie’s ear.

  “Think you could lead us to some breakfast?”

  Charlie gives a soft, eager huff, almost offended I even had to ask. Grizz nudges my shoulder with his massive head, already turning toward the deeper forest.

  Shineah notices, but she doesn’t smile.

  She just watches, tired and withdrawn. There’s a heaviness in her eyes. Something I’m not sure I should ask about.

  As soon as everyone is ready, we fall in behind the bears and wolves as they lumber ahead, the wolves drifting into a loose formation around us. The tribe follows, quiet and worn.

  The walk is slow. Branches drip with last night’s dew. The air hangs heavy and damp. No one speaks unless they have to. Even the children are silent. Every footstep feels like it sinks deeper than it should, like the forest floor is trying to pull us down. The Whisperwood is different in the morning, as if it remembers everything that happened last night and is waiting to see what we’ll do next.

  Shineah walks a few paces behind me next to her mother, her shoulders tight. Every time I look back to her, she looks away, refusing to meet my gaze.

  Charlie and Grizz keep moving with confidence and purpose. The wolves follow their lead. And then, faint at first, the sound of rushing water threads through the trees.

  It grows louder with every step, a low, constant roar that vibrates through the ground. The air feels fresher. The scent of wet stone and river mud cuts through the forest musk.

  Charlie picks up his pace. Grizz rumbles, eager. The wolves fan out, their ears pricking forward.

  We push through a curtain of brush, and the forest falls away.

  A wide, churning river cuts through the Whisperwood like a silver scar. The current is fast, loud, and alive. Salmon flash beneath the surface, their bodies twisting in frantic bursts of motion as they fight their way upstream.

  But it’s not the river that stops the tribe in their tracks. It’s the bears, dozens of them. Massive shapes wade through the shallows, their fur slick with water, their paws striking like hammers as they pull fish from the current. Cubs cling to their mothers. Young males splash and posture. Older ones stand like sentinels, watching everything.

  The Direfangs freeze behind me. A few children gasp. Someone swears under their breath. Even the wolves hesitate, ears flattening for a heartbeat, but Charlie and Grizz step forward with a quiet confidence.

  They rumble low, a sound I feel more than hear, a greeting, a recognition, something instinctive.

  The wild bears lift their heads.

  Sniff, huff, and then, one by one, they return to their fishing.

  The tension behind me loosens, but only a little.

  Shineah’s mother exhales. “Stay close,” she whispers. “And move slow.”

  I nod, though my heart is pounding, the memory of my fight with Charlie and Grizz’s mother sinks through me like a ghostly shadow.

  Charlie and Grizz wade into the shallows, their movements easy, natural, as if they’ve always belonged here.

  The tribe watches them for a long moment, unsure, hungry, exhausted.

  Then Rokan steps forward, followed by Garrun, Verrik, and other men I don’t remember the names of.

  Soon, the whole group is edging toward the water, drawn by the promise of food and the strange calm of the wild bears.

  The wolves slip into the shallows, snapping at salmon with quick, hungry motions.

  I kneel at the riverbank and cup my hands into the cold water. The shock of it wakes something in me. I drink the cold, clear water and watch, taking in all the scenery.

  Charlie swipes a salmon from the current with a single, practiced motion. Grizz does the same. They eat with a kind of quiet joy I haven’t seen in them in a long while.

  My gaze then drifts over to a mother bear, guiding her cub toward a slower eddy. The cub splashes clumsily, missing every fish.

  Something tightens in my chest as my gaze shifts back to Shineah, who is trying to get a fire going with her mother. She doesn’t look up, seemingly oblivious to me.

  Soon enough, they have a fire going, and everyone finally has something warm in their stomachs. The tension in the air softens. People sit. Shoulders drop. Children lean against the adults, half?asleep again, and for a moment, the tribe looks… steady.

  While we rest, my eyes keep drifting back to the bear cubs. They splash in the shallows, tumbling over their own paws, growling in frustration when they miss a fish. Their mothers guide them with slow nudges, patient and steady.

  My heart swells against my ribs. I look back at Charlie and Grizz.

  They’re sitting a little apart from the wild bears, watching them with a quiet, thoughtful stillness I’ve never seen in them before, like something in them is waking up.

  I stand, and Shineah’s eyes follow me as I cross the stones toward my bears. I step between Charlie and Grizz and wrap an arm around each of their shaggy necks, pulling them close. Their fur is damp and cold from the river; nonetheless, I press my face into their necks, breathing in their familiar scents.

  Then I press my forehead to theirs, one at a time.

  “Go,” I whisper, a tender ache blooming in my chest. “Find love… and be fruitful.”

  Charlie’s breath huffs warm against my cheek. Grizz shifts his weight, uncertain.

  I give them each a final, firm pat and point toward the other bears.

  They look at me for a long moment — hesitant, confused, as if waiting for me to change my mind.

  “Go on,” I say, my voice catching. “It’s alright.”

  They both wait another long moment, and then Charlie rumbles, a deep, joyous sound that vibrates through my arm. Grizz answers with a softer growl, and then they bound forward, splashing into the river with an eagerness I haven’t seen in them since they were cubs.

  They join the others, their kin, disappearing into the rhythm of the river.

  Tears brim in my eyes at the sight of them, free and happy. It brings a bittersweet comfort to my own troubled heart. I try to blink it back, try to swallow it down, but the more I fight it, the harder the tears fall.

  I turn my face away, wiping at my cheeks with the back of my hand, but it’s useless. The grief and the relief tangle together until I can’t tell one from the other. My chest aches. My throat burns. The river roars on, uncaring.

  I just stand there, watching the place where my bears disappeared, letting the tears fall until they have nothing left to give.

  The sound of the river mutes everything. Life goes on around me as if nothing has changed.

  When I’ve regained my composure, I look back to Shineah, who I see watching me from where she sits beside her mother, her face tight with something she’s trying very hard to keep contained.

  I can tell by her expression that she knows what I’ve done, and she knows I’ve done it, giving them the very thing I desperately want, but can’t have.

  The others don’t notice. They’re too busy eating, too relieved to have warmth in their stomachs and a moment of safety to spare a thought for anything else.

  But Shineah’s mother does.

  When I wipe at my face, thinking no one is looking, I catch a glimmer of recognition in her eyes. She holds my gaze for a heartbeat, then looks away, giving me the dignity of my grief.

  We pack up slowly, leaving the river behind. The wild bears fade into the mist. Charlie and Grizz are already lost among them.

  A small hand tugs at my sleeve. One of the Direfang children, the boy with the dark curly hair, looks up at me. “Where are your bears?” he asks. “Aren’t they coming?”

  My throat tightens.

  I try to answer, but the words scrape raw.

  “They’re… staying,” I manage. “They won’t be coming with us.”

  My voice cracks.

  The boy’s face falls. “But… why?”

  Before I can speak, Garrun snorts behind him. “Of course they’re not coming,” he mutters. “Figures. Right when we need to be the most on guard, needing the most protection, he lets it all go.”

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  The boy flinches.

  A few adults look over, confused.

  Shineah’s mother stiffens.

  And Shineah, she finally looks at me. Her expression isn’t angry, but it isn’t soft either. It’s the look of someone who understands exactly what I’ve given up… and exactly why it hurts.

  “Granny…” a little blonde girl tugs, her voice small and uncertain, “how is Tormack going to find food now?”

  Shineah’s mother looks down at her, the question landing heavier than the child could ever know.

  “I don’t know…” she whispers.

  Her eyes flick toward me for the briefest moment, but I say nothing and just keep walking.

  The walk is long and somber, then as the river bends, the land begins to rise and fall in ways that tug at something deep in my memory. A certain curve of the bank. A cluster of stones half?buried in moss. A fallen cedar I once used as a landmark.

  Shineah slows beside her mother, her brow furrowing.

  “Mother…” she murmurs, glancing around. “This place… I’ve seen it before.”

  Her mother studies the trees, the slope of the land, the way the river narrows ahead.

  As we draw nearer, the air smells faintly of smoke.

  My chest tightens. … but… the smoke… it isn’t overwhelming, it is gentle.

  We climb the slope and look across to see my home — or the little we were able to rebuild of it. It sits where it always has, but the holy stones, they are glowing again… and our home, someone has made some improvements to it.

  As I look around further, I also notice there’s a fire in the pit. Someone is here… it looks like someone has moved in…

  There is a shape hunched over a pot, stirring it with slow, practiced motions. A cloak draped over broad shoulders. I can’t see a face, but as we approach, the figure turns, and the hood slips back just enough for me to see him clearly. It is an old man with a long, weathered beard that brushes his chest, his hair is silvered with age. His face is lined, carved by the years, and his eyes are bright, gentle, and instantly familiar. My mouth falls open.

  Shineah’s mother stops walking. Shineah freezes beside her. The Direfangs gather behind us in a loose, uncertain cluster.

  “JETHRO?!” The name breaks out of me with a kind of joy I haven’t felt in… I don’t even know how long.

  Behind me, the Direfangs freeze, confusion rippling through them.

  Shineah’s mother goes still, her eyes narrowing, trying to piece it together.

  Shineah’s eyes look to him, then to me, at the way my face changes and the way I run to him.

  She’s never seen me like this.

  Jethro rises slowly from the fire, setting his stirring stick aside. He greets me with a nod and a warm and steady smile, opening his arms for an embrace.

  “There you are,” he says.

  The sound of his voice hits me like sunlight after a long winter. My throat tightens, and tears brim in my eyes as I meet him for the embrace.

  His hands come up to my shoulders, firm and grounding. He looks me over, my face, my scars, the exhaustion I’ve been carrying like a second skin.

  “You look like you’ve been through quite a bit, son,” he says.

  I swallow hard. “I… I was not expecting to see you here.”

  “I wasn’t expecting to see you here either,” he shrugs. “But I have definitely been thinking of you!”

  Behind me, Shineah quietly asks, “Tormack, is this your… Dad?”

  I chuckle at that.”No Shineah, this is Jethro… the Prophet...” My voice cracks. “My teacher.”

  All of the Direfangs are completely silent, and then someone breaks.

  “Prophet?” a teenager echoes. “But he’s… he’s a human…”

  Jethro chuckles softly. “You expected an orc?” he asks, lifting a brow.

  “Doesn’t he worship an orc god?”

  I shake my head, but the prophet answers. “Man was made in God’s image, and once long ago, all orcs, trolls, goblins, and ogres were all human… That is to say, they all came from human ancestors.”

  Silence falls heavily.

  From the back of the group, Verrik stares at me, then at Jethro, then back at me again.

  “Then… can your God change him?” he asks quietly. “Can he make Tormack human again?” He then studies me inquisitively, “or is he already turning him back into a human?”

  All eyes turn to me with the same wonderstruck expression.

  With a smile, Jethro answers before I can speak.

  “No, Tormack has always been a half-orc. He could turn him into a full human, but I get the impression that Tormack is exactly what God needs him to be right now.”

  Some people look even more confused than ever.

  Shineah is awestruck, trying to understand the history Jethro and I appear to have and the way this stranger seems to know me better than she does. For once, she even looks shy.

  Jethro squeezes my shoulder once, then releases me.

  “Let’s go for a walk,” he says quietly, turning toward the trees.

  We step away from the others, the forest swallowing the sounds of the camp behind us. The Direfangs don’t follow. They don’t even breathe. It’s as if the whole world is waiting to see what happens next.

  The moment we’re out of earshot, I exhale a breath I didn’t know I’d been holding.

  “What brings you here?” I ask.

  Jethro gives me a sideways look, the corner of his mouth lifting. “I had this strong feeling I needed to get out into the wilderness.” He winks, echoing the very words I once told him when I left Valhoon to build my home here.

  It hits me harder than I expect.

  “How did you know where to find me?”

  "I didn't,” he says simply. “I just found this place and felt drawn to it, but now that you are here, things make sense — funny how that works…”

  We walk a little farther with the sound of the river flowing beside us and the trees leaning in like they’re listening.

  “Tell me, what's happened since I saw you last in Valhoon?"

  I tell him how I, too, was drawn to this place, how I built a home here, how I met Shineah and took her to wife, and I tell him of the darkness we've battled together. He takes it all in and is genuinely happy for our marriage.

  The prophet then listens quietly as I tell him about Fendarrow, the corruption, and the way I dealt with the King and Queen. He nods slowly with understanding, his eyes then drift to the ground.

  As we pass a patch of undergrowth, he stops beside a weed pushing up through the soil that he taps lightly with the end of his staff.

  “See this?” he says.

  I nod.

  “You can chop the head off the weed all you want,” he says, brushing the leaves aside with his boot. “But so long as the roots remain, it’ll just keep growing back.”

  He looks up at me, eyes steady.

  “It’s the same with wickedness. You can cut down the man in charge, but if the hearts of the people are still corrupt, another will rise to take his place. The war we fight is a spiritual one — a war of ideas and beliefs more than flesh and blood.”

  I nod, knowing this all too well.

  As we draw closer to home, the prophet looks over at Shineah and the other Direfangs. "When you feel the time is right, I authorize you to perform the ordinances to bring your wife and family into the covenant. Have you written about your experiences yet?"

  I half laugh, "We've been on the move so much I haven't had the chance."

  The prophet nods and looks me dead in the eye. "Write them, as soon as you can, particularly about your experiences with God... Someday your posterity will look to your writings and regard them as scripture."

  I blink at the thought of it, taking it in for a moment, and then the prophet returns to the others. Before I even have the chance to say another word, the prophet is already gathering his things. "You are already leaving?"

  "I've got to get back to my family in Valhoon. I've been here long enough."

  Jethro slings his pack over one shoulder and adjusts the strap with a quiet grunt. He clasps my arm. He looks me in the eyes. “Write your story, son. God gave it to you for a reason.” Then he steps back, gives Shineah a warm nod, and lifts a hand to the Direfangs in a simple farewell.

  “My family will be happy to hear about you,” he says with a smile. And with that, he turns and follows a narrow path into the trees, his long beard swaying with each step until the forest folds around him and he disappears from sight.

  The clearing feels strangely hollow without him, but that brief miracle and moment in his presence was something I sorely needed.

  My heart swells as I look heavenward. “Thank you Heavenly Father, for sending him to me, and showing me that you are still there!”

  We settle in for the night.

  The Direfangs are restless, whispering among themselves, glancing toward the path Jethro took as if expecting him to return. The wolves curl close to the fire. Shineah sits beside her mother, quiet and thoughtful. I lie awake longer than I should, listening to the forest breathe.

  Morning comes cold and gray.

  Shineah’s mother is the first to rise. She looks over the tribe, then toward the river, then back to the forest behind us.

  “We should keep moving,” she says. “We’re nomads. We roam with the wolves… and we have to expect Fendarrow is still after us.”

  A murmur of agreement ripples through the Direfangs. They begin gathering their things with the weary efficiency of people who have lived their whole lives on the run.

  I stand there watching them.

  Shineah notices. She pauses, waiting for me to fall in line with the others.

  But I don’t move.

  “I’m staying,” I say quietly.

  The words land like a stone in still water.

  Every Direfang turns to look at me, some with confusion, some with relief, some with something like understanding. Then all eyes shift to Shineah.

  She hesitates, caught between her people and me. Her breath trembles. She steps closer.

  “Tormack… we should keep going,” she says softly. “It’s safer with the tribe.”

  I shake my head.

  She searches my face, hoping for a different answer. I shake my head again.

  A long silence stretches between us.

  Then Shineah exhales, shoulders dropping with a mixture of fear and resolve.

  “Then I am staying too.”

  The tribe goes still.

  Some look relieved. Some look troubled. Some look like they expected this all along.

  Shineah’s mother steps forward, touches her daughter’s arm, and gently pulls her aside.

  “Walk with me.”

  They go for their own private walk down by the river out of earshot from me and everyone else.

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  Her mother’s voice is low but firm. “I know you want me to butt out of your business,” she says. “But as your mother, hear me out.”

  Shineah looks down, cheeks warming.

  “Even the King and Queen of Fendarrow had children,” her mother continues. “Why should the masters have that, and not you? Why should they get to build a future while you throw yours away?”

  Shineah’s breath catches.

  “This rift between you and Tormack,” her mother says, “this fear that keeps you from giving him a family… that is letting the Masters win. Their children live. Their legacy continues. Time is the deciding factor now in who truly wins this in the end.”

  Shineah’s face flushes with embarrassment over getting this lecture from her mom — but truth… it weighs on her.

  Her mother softens, just a little.

  “You love him. I see it. But love without courage is just fear wearing a prettier face.”

  Shineah swallows hard.

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  Soon, Shineah and her mother return from their private talk. I can’t read Shineah’s face. Not yet. There’s a tightness around her eyes, a faint flush on her cheeks. Her mother’s expression is unreadable—calm, composed, but with something firm set behind her gaze.

  For a moment, my heart stumbles.

  Shineah stops beside me. She hesitates, just long enough for fear to twist in my chest, then she slips her arm around mine and leans into me, watching the others.

  The Direfangs see her choice. A ripple moves through the group—some relieved, some troubled, some simply accepting.

  And then the children break.

  Bren wraps his arms around Shineah’s waist. Lysa presses her face into her hip. Tiv stands stiffly, trying not to cry, and Mira clings to Shineah’s hand with both of hers.

  Shineah kneels, gathering all four of them close. Her voice is soft, steady, the way it always is with them. “I’ll be alright,” she murmurs. “You listen to your elders. Stay close to the wolves. And be brave.”

  They nod, but their eyes are wet.

  Only then do they look at me, not with anger or blame, but with a quiet, uncertain distance. A kind that wasn’t there before Fendarrow. A kind that says they don’t quite know what to make of me anymore.

  I offer them a small smile, but only Mira returns it, and even then, only halfway.

  Shineah notices. Her hand tightens around mine.

  The children step back, still watching Shineah as if memorizing her face. Rokan gathers them, and they reluctantly return to the group, glancing over their shoulders until the last possible moment.

  Just as the Direfangs are ready to leave, Shineah’s mother stands beside a large grey wolf, calm, alert, and watching everything with steady eyes. She reaches down and scratches it behind the ear with genuine affection. She then looks the wolf in the eyes.

  “Swiftpaw,” she says softly, “you stay with them now. Guard them and watch over their home.”

  The wolf brushes up against her and gives a low, obedient rumble before settling beside us.

  Her mother then straightens, lifts her arm, and calls into the branches overhead. A dark shape drops from the canopy, silent and effortless. An owl lands on her forearm, talons gripping the leather bracer she wears for this exact purpose. The owl’s amber eyes blink once, slow and deliberate.

  “Nightshade, I need you to stay as well,” she tells the owl. “Keep watch from above. And if they need us, you can find us at our old hunting grounds.”

  Only after both animals have acknowledged her does she turn to Shineah and me.

  “Without your bears, you’re going to need someone to watch over you and be your lookout,” she says. “Swiftpaw and Nightshade will do a good job of that. We’ll keep our tracks moving to keep Fendarrow busy. Send Nightshade if you need to reach us.”

  She steps forward and pulls both of us into a brief but strong embrace. It catches me off guard.

  I pause and search for the right words… “Thank you… Mom…” I manage, awkward and quiet.

  She smiles at that. It is small but genuine. She squeezes Shineah’s arm once, then turns back to the tribe. She then looks back once more. “May your God be with you, Tormack…” She gives a final nod, and the tribe departs, leaving just Shineah and me — alone — in our home in the Whisperwood — with the exception of Nightshade and Swiftpaw, who comes up to me and nuzzles my side looking for a scratch behind the ear.

  The last of the Direfangs vanish into the trees, their footsteps fading into the hush of the Whisperwood. Swiftpaw settles near the doorway of our home, and Nightshade watches from a low branch, her feathers blending into the bark.

  Shineah stands beside me, quiet, her arm still looped through mine.

  But the question gnaws at me.

  I turn to Shineah. “What did you and your mother talk about?” My voice is low, rougher than I intend. “Did she… try to convince you to go with her?” I pause a moment before asking further, “Why did you choose to stay with me?”

  Shineah’s head snaps toward me, her eyes flashing, not with anger, but with hurt.

  “Do you think so little of my word?” she asks. “Do you think so little of ?”

  I swallow hard.

  She steps closer, her voice softening but still fierce. “There is no other path for me. My home is with you, my husband. My children, when they come, will be yours.”

  The fire in her eyes dims into something deeper, something tender, steady, and unwavering. She lifts her hand to cup my cheek, her palm warm against my skin.

  “Tormack,” she whispers, her voice thick with emotion, “my love for you… it has always been real.”

  Her thumb brushes a tear I didn’t realize had fallen.

  “The only intention I have now, my husband, is to be your wife… Fully.”

  My breath catches. “What does that mean?” I ask, my voice barely a whisper. Hope flickers in my chest, warring with the last remnants of fear.

  Shineah’s smile blooms, soft, radiant, reaching all the way to her eyes.

  “It means,” she says, stepping closer until her body rests gently against mine, “that the fight against the Master’s shadow is not only outside, Tormack. It is within here.” She presses her hand to my chest. “In the fear and doubt he tries to plant.”

  Her forehead rests against mine, her breath warm on my lips.

  “It means no more distance between us. It means I am here—truly here—heart and soul. To build this home with you. To face whatever comes. To fill it with the sounds of our own children.”

  Her voice softens to a vow.

  “It means I want to be wife, in every sense of the word… and have you as my husband, without reservation or doubt.”

  She leans in, her lips brushing mine—soft, certain, a promise heavier than any spoken oath.

  The Whisperwood stands silent around us, the river murmuring somewhere beyond the trees, but all I feel is her—her warmth, her breath, her certainty. For the first time in a long while, the fear inside me loosens its grip. The Direfangs are gone, the prophet’s words still echo in my mind. The shadows of Fendarrow linger in the distance … but here, in this small clearing we call home, Shineah chooses me. And I choose her. Whatever comes next, we will face it together.

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